Caterpillar Dreams

When asked, "How do you get results for your sexual healing clients?" I respond that it's the client who experiences results. I listen, and offer safety, encouragement, tools, and most importantly, loving-kindness. I have no agenda or personal attachment to their results. I am in awe of what my clients overcome. I am moved by their courage and devotion to healing themselves. I am refreshed by their curiosity and willingness to explore and enjoy.

It's OK to have goals and to want results. What the mind often does with that, however, is to try to define how it's going to happen. The mind tries to define everything. It comes up with recipes and scenarios, usually linear, for how we're going to get from point A to point B in our growth. In doing so, we leave the moment. The mind is almost never in the moment; it is either looking ahead or to the past. In the gap between NOW and where the mind is off to, we fill with anxiety or memories, to name only two. We project the future based upon our current paradigm. It's what I call "Caterpillar Dreams." We could imagine that when the caterpillar looks ahead, it projects more caterpillar, more of what it already knows or remembers. Meanwhile, regardless of what it may be thinking or projecting, the transformation into its next form is inherent within it.

You have no power whatsoever in the future or in the past. The only power you have is in -this moment- right now- as you are reading this. Take a breath into your belly. Your body is in the moment. Your mind most likely is not. Tuning in to the body's sensations, moving your spine, breathing; these are things that help you to be in this moment and in your power. Become an observer of your body. Not to judge, but to notice and accept what is in each moment. Be kind to your body. Celebrate it!

Your sexual energy is your life force. It is the purest gift you are given here on the physical plane. It is not mental energy; it is not emotional energy. It is a direct window to Spirit, Higher-Self, expanded-consciousness, the Divine, or whatever you prefer to call it. Our life force is not conditional, however our minds are. When we separate our judgements, "This is good, that is bad," and conditions, "I can only open my sexuality when Mr./Ms. Right shows up," (again in the powerless future) from our sexuality, we begin to integrate this precious energy. When you stop confusing sexuality with your emotional needs or power struggles, you will find a treasure trove of nourishment.

You may not always be immediately aware of the results, but your transformation is flowing. Trust and allow yourself to flow in the direction you intend. Let go of what you "think" are the recipes for results; you may find many miracles you've never dreamed.

© 2002 Kevin Fortune

Reprinted from Open Exchange magazine